Mapping my Journey

What Am I deeply attracted to and why? I love to see God. We may look at something and see a pile of dirt. He looks at it as dirt that is ripe for something to be planted. Life for most of us is a puzzle; we scramble around looking for the pieces and wondering where I fit. The problem is not where do fit, the problem is that there is a piece missing. That center piece that connects all the other pieces together. Now this puzzle of life is sense. I have all the pieces. The piece that needs straightening out is me. I am attracted to how he works, it amazes me. How he puts it all together. Knowing in the midst of all things He is right there!!!!!
Romans 8:28 We are assured and know that [ God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose. (Amplified Bible)
Where do I feel God is calling me to stretch and grow? Three places, a deeper prayer life, more discipline study habits (the Word), and faith. Let me explain this, first I feel my prayer life is not as strong as it should be. Even if it was I would think that it was not. He is calling me to spend more time in his presence, not so much as talk but to listen. Being more discipline on my study habits, making sure that I not read it but that I live it (James 1:23). That it becomes my sword, for I do believe we are in midst of a battle. Speaking of battle that when I am in the midst of one or several that I don’t rely on myself, that I rely on the mighty power of God (Hebrews 11:1)
What kind of balance do I need in my life? I have been in the ministry for almost two years now. Honestly I have failed at balance. Horribly. For sometime I thought I was in this alone, God called me to do this and I am going to run with it. Not realizing what I was leaving behind, my wife and kids. That’s not God. I would wonder why I was all by myself. It’s because of the wall I had built and the hole that I had dug. It’s been a hard climb out. I am on my way up.